TAGBOARD. 100% width will do for MAIN & FORM.
Then set MAIN height=80% and FORM height=20% ;)


*CBOXMAIN displays the messages, the CBOXFORM displays the...well, the form. Set your bg to transparent and fonts to white..just a tip.
prologue.
Life is what you make it out to be.
Whether you can or can't, your usually right :)
Play your best out there cause no one is going to remember this like you do.
 dream big.
keep smiling.
stay sweet.
inspire.
looking back into the past where all our last time photos were.
i know that it was me who didnt want you then.
i dunno what was the problem with me.

i guess i just wanted sometime away.
and for you to change.

i really miss the old hani. the old hong hwee. alot. more then i can say.
but it was me who drived him away.
And now he is gone. dead. :(
i think its my fault. if its not for me, you wouldnt have left.

the saying is true that you never knew what you had untill its gone.
i learned this the hard way.

i wont do anything like this to anyone anymore.

it still hurt surprisingly. yet not very surprising also.
i guess i jsut have to look deep within me to find what im really feeling.
All the nice crush feelings are superficial. maybe im using that to make me feel better.

i don love the now hong hwee. i really don. i don even want to see him.

but i really miss my hani, the old hong hwee. that is the person that is the most important to me.
the one that i depended greatly on. the one who supported me a great deal.
The one who said that he will alway be there for me, and i trusted him 100% with anything.
The one who said that he will wait for me. Who i did a lot of things and wish to do more with.
The one who is forver my best fren, my first love and my true love.
the one that i drove away. the one that i would give anything to see one more time.

grow up sammie. his gone. as good as dead. not to be seen again.
what would i give for that miracle. :)

I realise that planning ahead makes time seems so much shorter than it really is.
My ah ma is dying. there is no words else to phrase it.

This year aint a good year. next year will be better.
This year i learned. next year i teach.

Later have to go to school to meet my group for idare.
i hope eveyrhting will be ok! hahahas.
results are out and mine is like that lo. not here not there.
don give a shit. i rarely find anything to give a shit now.

Then flower bloomed. attracted a 30 year old guy.
said that i made his heart move. he has a girlfren somemore.
if i was the girl, i would be sad.
But i know the feeling of the sparks. i know that it is not real.
lucky thing is that i am not older. if not have to see he jio me -.- not a nice sight.

last time when i was with hani, i didnt know that. stupid me.
but yeah at least now i know.

hmmmmm... i don really want a relationship to be honest.
but sometimes the flirt feeling is nice. makes me forget my loneliness.
im very happy for wendy and yan. Having a nice stable relationship. :)
Thats all what everyone wants.
I am not wallowing in self pity or sadness. but sometimes i just wanna let myself be sad.
Its hard to always be happy.

I still believe in true love! but maybe not for me ba.
i think i still wanna be a wedding planner! can see happy couples take the most important step.

i dunno what is the right way to think. so i think i just don think about it would be the best.
Im getting better. like what wendy says, i can start not to care so much.
i find it that i can be very cold hearted. i can hide everything till i don wanna feel it.
and just be ... a state of happy ba.
i don normally show that side though. but i think i have to show it to hong hwee.
that is the best for everyone also. i gotta remind myself that the now hong hwee is not the last time hong hwee that i loved. must not get confused.

gotta go to school soon. pack pack!
i love my blog. it helps me get stuff off my chest. =)

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