I just dunno what are people trying to do now anymore.
Days at work were horrid due to the fact that calvin choose not to talk to me anymore. So fucking childish. Cannot put behind us meh? How old are you man!? She dun like you is because you were dumb lah. seriously.
Hiaz. I ask Nor whether if she didn't like her working place would she quit or not. She told me is whether how much could i handle. She was scared that i wanted to quit. honestly i really want to sometimes.
But to me, i don want to quit just because of this lame reason. I really like working there. the pay is normal, but we do less shit work then crabtree. And that we get good incentives which i didnt know till sin joo told me. -.- I realize that alot of things that has to do with money i didn't know. Like going idare we get paid! LOL!
Anyways jowena last time told me to consider jing xiang. LOL! She told me that he is a really nice guy. and she told me that she thinks that he likes me.
Following that, when i went to eat lunch with nor, she also told me the same thing. LOL I told her everything that happened and she told me that she didnt like the fact they make us kiss on the cheeks. Oh well. i just said that i wish i didnt like calvin in the first place. si bei sian. And that he is immature to like let this feud continue.
she told me that she knows that jing xiang likes me. LOL she told me that he went to prep himself up before i came in! SO DAMN FUNNY! ahhhhhhhhhhh well ><
Im kinda scared now. i have worst taste in guys. Jing Xiang was damn sweet. He actually willingly switched his shift with me and ended up missing the soccer game! LOL. i ever heard before that if a guy who is like him, a fan, is willing to miss soccer for you, he must really like you. But i feel so damn guilty lah! my gawd :(
And during sunday when he is not working, i told him i very sian lah, cause calvin working. Heng not same shift but still have to be silent and cannot talk very xin ku. I cannot don't talk one! can die!
Then he told me to think of him and i will see him. At first i didn't relaly think much about it. But while i was cutting paper, he suddenly was infront of me and said, "are you thinking of me?" I jumped sia! LOL! scared me! but then he bought Gong Cha for me :) That really brightened up my day. Seriously. The day was like terrible for me until that moment.
He is a very nice and interesting guy to talk to. He is one kind of guy i haven met yet.
Everyone says that my heart is moved to easily. I agree. sian. And after the Calvin thing. im even more scared. I am like forcing myself to be more cold hearted so that i don moved so easily.
:) he is a very sweet boy. i like to talk to him alot. which is why im kinda scared. I don wanna hurt myself again. i don wanna be easy like everyone said. They say if your too easy, guys don treasure you.
Whatever lah. I don want to lose the first trust you give to people. i don want to judge and be wary of others cause of some stupid people.
I don want to get burned again by fake words and fake concern and fake hopes. i wonder what would come out of this. He is a year and 2 months younger than me.
i know i said before i don like younger guys. that was because i don wan to have anything to do with hong hwee. But after liking calvin, i guess it opened up to me like, don set preference. the heart feels what the heart wanna feel.
With the lord guidance :) i think i will be alright :)
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