Certain things i may think that it is still moving too fast.GODDAMIT~! i need to study. I really don think i can concentrate with Pon here. LOL. Not that i don want him here, just too much of a distraction. i think soon when we are together for a longer period of time, it will get better. Probably we will get more use to each other and will not stick too much to each other?
I always said that i hate guys that stick, and that im not the kind of girl that sticks, but why in this case is it so different? Everything is so perfect now, wonder when it will all come crashing down? I dunno how to see things, although i really want to like one day by one day take things as it comes, but im kinda scared that this perfect feel is not going to last.
We will get sick of each other... that sort of things. All it takes is one of us to get sian, and then everything will start spiraling down. In any case, i hope its not me who will be sian first. I really wish it was him. I don want everything to repeat again. I rather be the one who gets tiring, then being the one tired. if my english makes any sense at all.
He makes me happy. :) I hope that i can make him happy too.
in the past relationship, i use to think very much on friend view. So much that i neglected hong hwee alot. This time i don wanna do that, i want to take in consideration of his feelings. He also gives me alot of space. but sometimes i feel sad that if richard and fontaine says that they don have anyone to pei them for like special occasion. Like richard told me about count down. like sad that i wasn't single, ok, we are not together yet, but you get the drift. Sometimes i wish i could be there for them, but now its difficult. Not that im complaining much, but i wish there was more that i could do.
CT~ cant really be bothered. I just want to prove something. that im not dumb. I don want to be left behind, free loader. those stuff. I wasn't in secondary school.
Hiaz. i still dunno what is serene doing with her life. Break up, patch, break up patch. WTF LO. CAN PEOPLE JUST FREAKING FIND WHAT THEY WANT! -.- They are not making any sense. hiaz...
Life i wish was simple, but apparently with friends like this, its never going to be that simple. You tell me not to care also cannot.
I wanna know what is the future, because if it holds sadness then i'll leave. But if staying makes you happy then i will :) You let me learn a whole new way in looking at a relationship.
Thanks for keep reminding me that you are not hong hwee. :) You two are different. i don want to mix you guys up.
Fontiane is emoing now. i dunno how to help her. hiaz.. i will try smsing her. hope she feels better!
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