It's Christmas season!
Love this holiday :) season of giving :)
I hope that everyone would be happy!
I wished I have loads of money so that I can give everyone something to make them smile :)
I know that money isn't everything but it is something needed in life~
I'm glad that Pon liked the gift though :) I really like his gift! He didn't believe lo!
Oh well! Wanna make the most out of this year.
Honestly all I can say is that Pon is the best thing that happened to me this year.
This year honestly sucked and i really didn't expect much. I just wanted to like get it over and done with this year. Start and new year and everything will be better :)
God is good to me to let me meet Pon.
Time and time again I sort of challenged him like, if I was really meant to be with Pon, prove it.
This feel like so surreal that sometimes I don't know whether it's a game/dream/expectation/reality.
He is so going to scold me for this but honestly, I don ever expect this in my life.
I really don't want to screw this up, in relationship I have the tendency to :(
He is always there for me, he takes all my insecurities and told me its ok, making me feel loved :)
Although that he always say that he is emotionless and all. But it's good enough for me.
I dunno what is love, I will just try and do what I feel like doing.
LOL! I wonder how long we will last when we get together! But this kind of thing, leave it to the future ba to think :)
I promise not to think about it! Cause after that time of crying. I don want to think anymore >< I don want to fight! So tiring. I don wanna win, there is no point.
Last time I always wanted to win. Like there must be a winner.
But I don want it to be that way anymore.
Another issue that I wanted to say was that hong Hwee fought with Casey so Jia lat cause he don let her stay over? So weird lo!
People will ask me why I'm talking about this but still! Curious mah.
I don get it why he won't let her, and after that she got sensitive and asked whether did I stay over.
I mean don break up because of this lah -.- come on! It has nothing to do with me anymore.
She is ruining things lo. Hiaz.
I feel bad for him. Although I don really treat him like a very close friend but still~
Chang hong asked me whether I would want him if he were to come back. To be honest i cannot say an outright no, but i don think i want. I can see that it would not make any difference. Both of us would not be happy. Si hao also answered for me a no. LOL~ so si hao.
Every time i do think of this, i get mixed feelings. i know its not the feeling of wanting to get back. more like nostalgic, a missing ba. i miss the old him, thats all. But honestly, this issues i dont want to think about it till the time comes. hopefully it doesn't though.
LOL! IVP IS HERE! Need to work hard. Honestly i am really lazy to train for ivp cause of the level of commitment and its really tiring. the last training, i can even see our captain really tired. JOELYN LEH! LOL. And some more, i didn't had enough sleep. Can die. After this IVP, im not sure if i want to continue to the next Polite. Probably Polite, but after that, maybe i won't go for the IVP. that would be during my internship. and if i go overseas then how? :) its ok. I had my chances already :)
Another thing now a days is that i cannot take richard whining. LOL! I wonder how is he going ti survive NS sia. LOL. This is my blog, so i just wanna rant. LOL! not only time lah, i cannot take it when people like eat and don put away the stuff they eat in my house. i will scold them one. All my older friends, longer friends will know one. i just cannot take it and i dont like it, im not your maid. PEACE OUT!
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